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holey...

yesterday was characterized by three things:

1. it was cold out side and hot inside. but in a good way. apperentally it only went up to 37º. but I thought it was the right amount of biting to be the right kind of biting cold. (I like my seasons to be recgonizeable - summer to be hot and winter to be cold/summer to have sun that beats down and warms my bones, and winter to have a bite on my ears and nose and cheeks.)

2. i was, and still am, so sore from monday track workout. basically, lunges down the hallway with 15 pound weights. ow for my ass and thighs. it hurts to sit and stand up, which gets awkward when i want to get to my locker. i like muscle soreness (it shows me that i worked my muscles) but i dont know how i am going to hurdle if i cant lift my leg to put on my sock in the morning.

3. my headphones shocked the inside of the ear. a lot. it was odd. is that bad for my ear?

and also: last night i had a dream about an earthquake. which, in my dream, felt more like being inside a cellphone on vibrate. i was very calm. i think the dream came from being jolted out of sleep, and i only slept two hours, so it was an intense jolt.
does anyone remember that there was an earthquake in queens when we were very little? the story goes that we were at my grandma's and the dishes on the coffee table just started shaking.

we have apple juice in my house again and it makes me infinately happy.

i turned 16 yesterday, but i didn't really notice. then i woke up this morning and thought dammit, it was my birthday yesterday and i didn't really notice
days go by so quickly and that's okay when i want my day to end, but on days that are supposed to be special, it's sort of a letdown.
but my birthday was as nice as one on a school day could possibly be, i'm pretty sure, so it's all good.

my birthday's on wednesday, but i really don't want to be so obnoxous about it this year. that's one more thing i look back on a cringe about. being so self-centered on my birthday. i know it's the day you can be like "it's all about me" but i cringe that i every wanted a day that was "all about me." anyway, this year my birthday snuck up on me. i didn't realize i'm turning 16. like i think i've said before, i feel like i've been 16 all summer. like i felt with 14 going on 15... 14 is just so young and i feel like 15 is also so young. 16 is okay, 17 still looks really really old. i'm gonna be in college when i'm 17. for a couple months. senoir year. anyway, once i'm happy being 16, i turn it. so then i'm happy for a couple months and, oh look, i'm young again.
i feel like i've had so many firsts this year (this 2006 in particular to recently i think) i never need another first for the rest of highschool, but i s'pose a year ago i wouldn't have thought i would do/want a lot of things i have don now. not that they're not good things, or are big things... you get it...?
anyway, thanksgiving was good. like, the week was good, the actual holiday was a bit unexciting. basically because we went to my grandma's house instead of my mom's cousin's house and at my mom's cousin's house, her daughter makes really really really good cranberry pie. that's like the staple of my thanksgiving. not turkey - i don't even really like turkey - but cranberry pie. pecan and pumpkin are good, but sorta like, okay, this is sweet, but unexciting.
i have to read 192 pages of the unbearable lightness of being today and make a thesis. it's not that i don't want to read it, it's very good, just i had other things i had to read on the subway and 192 pages is kinda a lot.

whoever came up with that thing
you can have three things at hunter
1. grades
2. friends
3. seep
choose two
is pretty good. i feel like another one is 4. extracurriclars. maybe the first one should just be "1. college acceptance letter" but maybe i just am thinking that because JUNOIR YEAR THE COLLEGE PROCESS STARTS.

it's not that i ran out of words, it's that in a year i've realized i don't like my words again.
or maybe it's mr. zeger's fault of teaching creative writing.
or facebook's fault for making livejournal obsolete.
did i type jivejournal? that'd be cool. how'd that work?

happy week of hanging out. i mean, if we didn't have these two 1/2 days, would we really be spending so much time with friends? days off means you stay home and full days means you go home. 1/2 days are wonderful for that reason, i think.

i like. boots. i like. sweaters. i like pictures very much. and walking.

goodbye.

okay.
tomorrow
1. USH test (havn't started with that at all)
2. creative writing journal turn in (have to catch up and write 9 poems tonight)
3. second draft of scarlet letter FLE
4. math (in which i have no idea what's going on... trigonometric functions what?)

friday
1. bio test (i made 3 pages of what will/should be a probably 8 page study sheet)
2. personal essay rewrite due

i can get through this...

(emma,) how can one not be overwhelmed by homework?
oh, to explan my mental state: i copied a page of notes from emma's notebook and put the photocopy in the notebook as to not wrinkle it and then put the notebook back in her locker with my photocopied sheet. i think. i'm not sure.

oh, happy november. haha, 29 days till i'm 16. yea, i know i'm young.
it was so warm today. what?

12.65 seconds.
i fail by 12.65 seconds.
and 5 places.
5 places for 12.65 seconds?
12.65 seconds.

braces off!
brusing my teeth is so much easier!
i realize since the middle of 7th grade i've had some kind of metal in my mouth.
and friends i made after the middle of 9th grade have never seen me without braces.
crazyness.
i still have some type of über-sexy (or not-at-all-sexy) invisilign thingy to wear on my top teeth but at least that can be taken out.
mkay, bye.
off to study psat shit... see you all tomorrow bright and early at 8:30! (tell me if i'm wrong about the time.)

i don't really think i like junior year. well, i've said that at the beginning of the past two years also and they've turned out great... but i feel like this is different. but maybe this means i'm just continuing with a good tradition. i dunno, i need to go a party or something...